This past week has been pretty amazing. I have been blessed to get an oppertunity to lead three men this summer. Josh, Matt, and Andrew. The whole team went out to Echo Ranch this past weekend and did some work for the camp. Then on Friday night Matt, Josh, Andrew and I sat down and told each other our life stories. I just want to say that those guys are so amazing and I am excited to see God grow them this summer.
I have been hearing a lot of lies recently from satan and I have been having to pray a lot about them a lot. Also, it seems that every part of my day I should be doing something and I am not to sure that that is true. I always feel that I am not doing something and it has been hard for me to relax. I just spent the last hour journaling, reading, and praying about all these things but I would love to have your prayers on this stuff too.
Other than that, Alaska is beautiful and there is still so much snow. I am pretty sure that there probably won't be any hiking of mountains in the near future, which is pretty sad. I wanted to do some of that. And I still have to raise some more support to aquire a fishing license so I might not be doing any of that either. Welp, there you have it. Now I must go get my laundry. Later everybody!!
Monday, May 28, 2007
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
ALASKA
I am here. I have made the trip to the beautiful state of Alaska. It was long and worth every second of it. I got to see some of the most beautiful scenery that I have ever laid eyes on. We all drove through the Northern Rockies. It was one of Canada's National Forests called Banff. I even walked on a melting ice lake. Don't ask me why I did this I still am trying to figure out why I did that.
When we all made it up here I was in awe. I have missed this place since I rode the ferry out in 2005. I am part of a 14 member staff and four of which are women. I feel so blessed to be along side of these people. The Lord has really been showing me so much these last few days. I have been pretty much overwhelmed and I have been appointed so many duties that I don't know where to start. I am in charge of all the supplies of this Project. You might be thinking, "Oh that doesn't sound that bad." But think about managing stuff for 4o people and then on top of that growing men and doing ministry. It's crazy and all I can do is completely give myself up to the Lord and let him work through me and delegate tasks to others. Its pretty crazy.
Also, I found out that I forgot to budget support for my food this summer so I am about $1000 short of what I need for this summer. I am not going to lie but it is hard for me to have faith that the Lord will provide and at the same time take an initiative in raising more support.
Well, I need to go and get going on some more stuff today. I love you all and I hope to be able to inform you all more on what God is doing here this summer!
When we all made it up here I was in awe. I have missed this place since I rode the ferry out in 2005. I am part of a 14 member staff and four of which are women. I feel so blessed to be along side of these people. The Lord has really been showing me so much these last few days. I have been pretty much overwhelmed and I have been appointed so many duties that I don't know where to start. I am in charge of all the supplies of this Project. You might be thinking, "Oh that doesn't sound that bad." But think about managing stuff for 4o people and then on top of that growing men and doing ministry. It's crazy and all I can do is completely give myself up to the Lord and let him work through me and delegate tasks to others. Its pretty crazy.
Also, I found out that I forgot to budget support for my food this summer so I am about $1000 short of what I need for this summer. I am not going to lie but it is hard for me to have faith that the Lord will provide and at the same time take an initiative in raising more support.
Well, I need to go and get going on some more stuff today. I love you all and I hope to be able to inform you all more on what God is doing here this summer!
Sunday, May 6, 2007
Love
I have been a little confused lately about things that have been going on. I sat down last night with a person who was my first ever best friend in Christ. I never really ever got a chance to tell him that. I always thought that I was just a good friend to him, but not really one his best friends. I told him about how much I looked up to him my freshman year, how much I desired to have a heart for the Lord as he did. I could come to him about all the hard things in life and he would just listen and not judge me but still correct me out of love. I really haven't talked to him in three years. It was like I knew him but only as an acquaintance. As we sat there last night and early this morning, I heard of his desire to know the Lord and to be used by him every second of his life. He admitted his faults and his weaknesses and stated that he was nothing without Christ. I sat there in awe over his humility and desire to know God.
I guess this is where I am confused. I sat there and listened to him all night and looked in to his eyes and saw his desire to know and be used by God. His heart told the story. As it says in Proverbs 27:19, "As water reflects a face, so a man's heart reflects the man." That was his reflection. So, to get back to my confusion. (the next few things I am going to say are quite emotional and at no point am I trying to say that I am anything because it is not me that did this but Christ) I could have easily pointed out every flaw of my friend and told him how he doesn't measure up. How what he has done in his life didn't help out ministries or his image in Christ and that what he did a lot of the times were wrong. I could have pointed at his sin and gave him nowhere to run, and rammed it in his face. But I didn't, he was already convicted of these sins in his life. He knew, better than I, of what he has done. There would have been no reason for that. I listened to him and told him of the strength that I see in him, the kind of strength that comes from his weakness. Which leads me to a point that I need to see myself. Why do some want to point out the flaws of others? Is it to make them hurt more than they already do? Do they really want to help? Or just tell you that you are broken? Do they really love you or are they disgusted by your struggles and can't stand to be around a person who fails? (especially if that person "knows better")
When we bring things into the light are we doing it out of love or do we want to make a person so aware of their failures that they run from ever wanting to open up to that person again?
I guess this is where I am confused. I sat there and listened to him all night and looked in to his eyes and saw his desire to know and be used by God. His heart told the story. As it says in Proverbs 27:19, "As water reflects a face, so a man's heart reflects the man." That was his reflection. So, to get back to my confusion. (the next few things I am going to say are quite emotional and at no point am I trying to say that I am anything because it is not me that did this but Christ) I could have easily pointed out every flaw of my friend and told him how he doesn't measure up. How what he has done in his life didn't help out ministries or his image in Christ and that what he did a lot of the times were wrong. I could have pointed at his sin and gave him nowhere to run, and rammed it in his face. But I didn't, he was already convicted of these sins in his life. He knew, better than I, of what he has done. There would have been no reason for that. I listened to him and told him of the strength that I see in him, the kind of strength that comes from his weakness. Which leads me to a point that I need to see myself. Why do some want to point out the flaws of others? Is it to make them hurt more than they already do? Do they really want to help? Or just tell you that you are broken? Do they really love you or are they disgusted by your struggles and can't stand to be around a person who fails? (especially if that person "knows better")
When we bring things into the light are we doing it out of love or do we want to make a person so aware of their failures that they run from ever wanting to open up to that person again?
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